Staying focused should be easy. Just focus. Direct attention to something and keep your attention there.
Why then should focusing be so difficult when it should be so simple? Why is focusing on everything else so much easier than focusing on what really needs to be focused on?
Am I lazy?
Am I stupid?
Am I afraid?
If I’m lazy, why am I being lazy? Laziness hurts me more in the long run doesn’t it?
If I’m stupid, why then do I not educate myself further?
If I’m afraid, what am I afraid of and why am I afraid of it?
I’m afraid of nothing… yet I’m afraid of everything. How can both be true at the same time?
Why am I stuck here where I don’t want to be stuck and unable to focus?
Why do I have so many unanswered questions? Why can’t I answer them? What is wrong with me?
Why can’t I just step outside myself and stop being so self-involved?
Does this all not mean that I’m insane?
Why do I lack the power to not be insane? And why can’t I stop eating junk… that might help things a lot!
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