I can be happy for the world, for people, animals and nature, even though I myself may not be happy at the moment. So many thoughts have been rattling around in my mind… looking for some sort of anchor or spark.
I know why this is so. There are big decisions I need to make. Once so dangerously impulsive, I’ve settled into a place where I feel too much comfort in keeping things the same.
Not so bad… unless there are important changes that need to be made. I’m at an impasse but I’m hesitating to do anything about it…. as I must.
I try very hard these days not to use my own personal problems to strike out against the world. A lot of bad things have happened in my life, and continue to happen, but bad things happen to a lot of people, all the time every day. I’m not so special. It’s not my fault, but it’s not the fault of everyone else either. One or two people maybe, but not all.
Accepting this to be true, I can generally feel happy for others most of time no matter what I’m going through myself. Doesn’t mean I’m going to let anyone take advantage of me. I’m human but I’m not a saint or a martyr.
Here’s an exercise to try:
Do something good for someone, no matter how small, but don’t expect anything in return.
Open a door for someone without expecting a thank you. If they do thank you, great. If not, don’t take to feeling wronged or cheated. Don’t even think about it at all. Open a door for another person.
What else can be done for someone else in this way? How far would you go? How far would I go? Interesting to think about isn’t it?
To be honest, most of my life I’ve tended to be a pretty selfish person. It’s never too late to change though, and I’ve gradually been improving.
Every Monday from now until I get tired of it I will be posting on various mental health topics. That’s a joke. I never get tired of talking about mental health!